Everything is blur

I don't really know, it's all I can say. The only I know is what will happen, like it or not. 

Yesterday I went to bed with so much strange feeling that today it seems to be doubled. The weather does not help me really, so rainy... but at the same time it makes me to dry myself inside.

I need the book in my hands to blow my mind away from this deep hole I feel to be in. But I know I can't think further. I need the book to be come with her. 'Cos she is my other level.

Last months I was so strong I couldn't believe myself, and I thought it would be that forever now. My mind was ready. Now I feel it's not. Neither I am. And I see all the lines closed around. But I'm running to open them again. Wide. 

I don't know if I want the moment to come or to pass, but just to be in front and face it once and for all. I need that turning point in my and our lives. 

I know I am still stronger than ever though I can't feel it. But I will.

Más fuerte que nunca?

En este estado de no sé cómo y no sé qué me siento más fuerte que nunca. 

My life has changed a lot in the last few years and I don't know if I was really ready for all changes. 

Now I feel I am. My mind needed them. And also my soul. 

Now I realise I can look beyond without blinking. 

Ahora siento que puedo coger el fuego sin quemarme.

I've crossed many rivers until now but none as wide as this one I am in front of. 

Now I feel myself as I've never felt before.

And the best thing is...

that I like it!